I finished this a few days ago so I could let it all sink in. Maybe it still hasn’t, because I still harbor this lingering sense of melancholic awe akin to shock, and knowing how to respond to such a foreign feeling is perplexing. Here we are at the doorstep of the last blog post, and as I look back on my work here with the perspective Dillard lent me I can’t help but hear a cynical voice that is already “growing tired with the world” as she puts it in her afterword. And that’s ridiculous because I haven’t seen the world yet, I’m 23 and still on my parents health insurance. I can save weariness for when I’ve been around long enough for the world to slap me around a few times. I want to see much more in my bold twenties than my small cynical box is currently allowing. Perhaps I’ll trade this box in for a cabin.


There were so many points of admiration for me in this book that it’s impossible to rank which ones are important enough to discuss here. Many of you mentioned in last weeks post that the style is pretty rich, which I wont disagree with, but I’m not sure it would be in the forefront of my realizations about this text had it not already been planted in my mind. It’s rich but effective, and when something works as well as this does I immediately find myself immersed in the content rather than syntax. I did not experience any reader fatigue, but perhaps my bias lies in some sort of love I found myself falling into the clearer I saw what Dillard was putting in front of me.
Perhaps the coolest parallel Dillard illustrates between the animals and herself is her restlessness for migration in the chapter “Northing.” She has been a part of nature for so long at this point that she seems to have reawakened the primal animalistic spirit inside of herself. She does not want to follow her animal counterparts south, however, and hungers for the north. I share her appetite here, and agree with her symbolism as she states in her afterword, “the soul’s emptying itself in readiness for the incursion of the divine.” The arctic landscape is so desolate and isolated that it could be viewed as apocalyptic. Dillard has a deep appreciation and connection with nature, yet she wants to move north where she can stand on top of the world and watch it fall away. On the surface this seems depressive, maybe even a little crazy. But at the same time, there is a sense of purity and beauty mixed with danger in the extreme north, and all of these elements are the big picture embodiment of the small things that Dillard has evolved the eyes to see.
Well, here we are, perched on the precipice of prose induced blogging that gave me so much anxiety this semester, and now I’m having mixed feelings about ending it. But where one project ends another begins, and with this off the list I have just a little more room for new ideas to pop into my head, and I can begin writing that craziness while I’m still fortunate enough to humor the imagination.
“How boldly committed to ideas we are in our twenties!”